Thursday the 20th, found emotional scars
Today was a bit of a challenge. I sort of came down from the anger of my birthday, and it was a pretty neat day. First of all we got the Family Planning waiver signed. That was my primary goal at work. So yee ha.
But I also realized why my birthday sucks. When I was growing up my best friend was an older kid down the block named Matt Hahn. When I was like 12 or so he got killed in a car wreck on my birthday. I never really made that connection to my anger before, but man does that make sense. I think it is cool how you have scars, even if you forget what they are from.
As a result, I did not really eat for a few days. Yesterday I was way below my calorie count, like 1000 calories for the day. I went to sleep, and my body woke me up a few times, but I rode it out. I also did not take my metphormin for a bit. Two days. Not smart.
So today I did not have breakfast, or lunch. By the endd of the day I was miserable. Totally raging. Self destruction in my head and the whole bit. So I went to McDonalds and got a dollar burger and a soda. And ate it in the car with such anger it was like a parody.
It soothed the sugar issue, but it made me sick. Now I have the runs. Its 122 am, and I keep pooping. thanks Ray Kroc. Jackass.
The almighty El Hershbo is sick. She seems like she wants to cough something up, like a hairball, but it is really rough. She cant really sleep all that well, and she did not go on the walk with me tonight.
Thanks for your birthday support.
anonemoose said:
I’m glad that you have realized one of the reasons that you don’t like your birthday. That realization, alone, should help in the future.
Losing someone on or near a significant date DOES tend to taint what that date means to us on a personal level. My mom died on December 22 a few years back and I can honestly say that I hate Christmas.
I don’t have any answers but I hope the realization you had regarding your birthday brings you some peace.
And I hope Hershey is feeling better. I’m sure your walks are more pleasant with her at your side.
moose
December 22nd, 2007 at 9:01 am #
Tom Neal said:
Hey man,
Now that the Thanksgiving-to-Christmas binge season has come and gone and the new year looms, I’m once again focused on self-repair (need to trim a passel of pounds of my frame). Made a lunchtime visit to the downtown Y today to kick things off with some running, excruciating bending and cycling. Topped it off naked in the steam room (I learned recently from a reliable resource that, contrary to guys’ mental images, the ladies in their Y locker room don’t traipse about in the buff, nor lounge as such in their steam room … all very prim and proper they are). In the men’s facility, it’s all too much information. Anyhow (this isn’t an invite to a date), if you want to start a Y regimen, like at 5 am or lunchtime or whatever, let me know. It’s a results-producer.
December 27th, 2007 at 1:34 pm #
Dino Corvino said:
Thanks Tom.
December 27th, 2007 at 1:57 pm #