Depression is real, and Medical
So I am going to say, holy shit. I have been off of the lexapro for about a week now, and honestly I am a wreck. I have never really experienced this, and man oh man.
So, I finished with the weekly time at Winning Weighs. I think. The program was so amazing, and changed my life in such a way that I will never return to bad habits. It was a simple change, but one so amazing.
But with that, some of my prescriptions ran out. Not the metformin, but the lexapro did. My doctor in the program is the one who prescribed it, and the pharmacy said this or that, and now I am done with it. So, I suppose I need to go get a doctor. I truly do not want to, but I am 37 now.
But this week was just brutal emotionally. I had a work project pause for a few days, after working at a blistering pace and intensity, so suddenly I had a ton of sort of exhale time. I just got brutally sad, and argumentative, and I have been a dick.
I mean I am legitimately sad. There really is no way around that, I might be a depressed dude. I can not tell. But the swing this week was brutal.
So, I am sorry Jim and Tom and Andy. I think you guys took the brunt of it. I am so sorry. I am emotionally tired, but lashing out like I did at you, my friends was not cool. You mean a lot to me, so I am sorry.
I think for a while, the key to this thing will be endorphin management. I broke a milestone in weight loss, and suddenly a number thing is within reach. It is right there, a few thousand miles on the treadmill away. I so want to see that number. If I see that number, I am totally going to vegas.
Prince at Coachella. Better than sex with a supermodel. And I should know.
ash122 said:
Dino,
Congrats on finishing the program…you’ll get your weight target…I have no doubt about that. Go and get the lexapro refilled. I never had any issues with depression until my son was born then BAM got hit out of the blue…thought it would fade after a couple of weeks and it didn’t. Ended up on Zoloft and everything was fine. AFter a year, the doctor said it would be fine and weaned me off (did they do that with you..that could be an issue to). Within 4 weeks, the sadness and angriness was back. I went back on the Zoloft and haven’t had an issue since. I’ve accepted that I’ll be on it for ever…In my mind..it’s no difference then HBP or Diabetes…you need to take medicine to keep it in check…same thing with this. If things get crazy and I miss a couple of days…I can feel it and it starts to sneak back in..just like you described.My doctor told me that anything can change our body chemistry…in my case the preganancy…in your case…it could be your weight loss. Our bodies are an amazing, yet complicated thing. Depression is real and you’ve done so much and have so much more to do….to be SAD and MAD….once you get your medicine back you’ll feel like your old self again. Hang in there and remember you have a whole community here who believes in you….
May 3rd, 2008 at 6:27 am #
Alex said:
Dino,
Depression is real. I have had it suck all the life out of me many times. I hope the suns shines on you today.
May 3rd, 2008 at 6:46 am #
zeenawombat said:
Dino:
Don’t be afraid to ask for or go get help. In fact, please do. Depression is real, it’s not something you should just try to “get over” or “work through.” (Or as someone once told me, “pull yourself up by your bootstraps!”) For many people it is a real chemical issue, and really, you’re not going to try to remove your own appendix, right?
I’ve known so many people who had that sad/mad and just thought life had to be that way, but were really truly helped with the right meds. (And there are so many different ones, and what works for one person might not work for someone else, so don’t be afraid to ask for something different, either!)
May 5th, 2008 at 2:50 pm #
robertmentzer said:
Yeah no kidding zeena, I hate the attitude that it’s somehow wrong to take medicine. No one ever advises anyone to pull themselves up by their bootstraps to cure their malaria.
May 8th, 2008 at 9:38 am #