Waking up with Sunspot Wendy
So this morning the first thing I heard when I woke up was Sunspot Wendy. There is something magical about waking up to the encouraging words of a beautiful woman. Laying in bed talking, deciding to go to the gym, become a morning workout person. These are all amazing things. Let me be clear, I spoke to Sunspot Wendy while laying in bed. Sure, it was on the phone, but I was still in bed talking to one of the most pretty women I know. So that has to count for something, in my man world view of life. Even the dog jumped when the phone rang at 515 am.
So, aside from the fact that I talked to Sunspot Wendy, while in bed, I thought about gratitude today while on the treadmill. This process of getting my life back in some sort of shape has not been a solo effort. It has not been an act of will on my own. So I wanted to say thank you.
1. Lisa at the City Pages. She might not understand, but she was the earliest supporter who did not share my last name. Everytime I called in for work, she encouraged me. She read this blog, commented from time to time, and basically was an awesome supporter. So thank you Lisa.
2. My buddy Sullie. I think that the fact that he had like a heart attack at an early age made me think about this for a while. I think that suffering was in my head a while ago, and it was great to correct my bad thinking with that image.
3. Peckham. Pat is a sort of touchstone in my life. I have tremendous intimacy issues, and I am not sure what they come from, but Pat simply is a calming supportive mentor. I am lucky to have him in my life. I often feel that I get a constant barrage of demands and picking, and Pat never does that. Ever. He has an amazing cool about him.
4. Kari and Leah at Wausau Area Events. This is going to seem insane. But let me just say when they said, “You look ten years younger.” to me the other day my heart leapt. Let us break this down…1. I respect their work immensely. They are MVPs of this town, and I think it is important what they do. 2. They are very pretty women….so you add up the fact that I love what they do, and think they are pretty, like any man I am going to want to look good in their eyes. Its silly, but that one statement got me back on the treadmill with a vengeance. Knowing I can do better.
5. And my friend Andy Laub. Andy is a guy I have a sort of awesome amount of crying in public love for. Andy has built this sort of amazing life for himself, and I am totally jealous of it. In a good way. This weekend we talked about the shelves in his garage. He has an amazing garage, clean like a restaraunt. Order. Andy has order in his life. And I love it. He talks to me about mountain bikes in a good way, a subtle sort of reminder that I need to ride more. He is not reminding me, I do not think, but it is a good conversation for me.
So, this is a long transition. Made even harder by my intimacy issues which manifest from time to time. I want to thank these folks, and the many more who helped me. Thank you.
cupcake said:
I’m very late in writing as I was out of town last week - at the ocean, and in the mountains. (I thought of you Dino when I was in Grant’s Pass, OR; do you remember what happened there?).
Anyway, thanks for the kind shout-out. Three of those that you mentioned are favorites of mine, also (Pat, Leah and Kari), and I’m sure Sullie and Andy would be if I met them.
I quit writing comments and asking questions on the CW site as you never really responded, so I thought you probably thought my comments weren’t “inspiring”. Thanks for saying that you welcomed my support.
Hope you get back to the gym; stick with it! Take advantage of this great outside weather, too, while it lasts. And my new favorite piece of advice: Never put food in your mouth WITH FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH!
August 17th, 2008 at 1:38 pm #