We all make resolutions for New Years Eve. We just all do it. Few of us keep them, but I have made a few and kept a few over the years. I have been lucky that way, and I am proud of that stuff.
The best part of this journey, is addressing things when they arrive. I am doing that now, and I am happy to have had the place with which to process these things.
This past holiday I went up north for a week with my mom. It is slowly becoming our tradition. My brother goes to his wifes family, and me and mom go up north. There is a place she likes to eat, and we go there. And we relax, and unwind, and UNPLUG.
This journey I am on is the front of my mind all the time, and I am always thinking about new things to challenge myself, and they ways I am interacting in the world.
I had a bad day last week. And it was a day where I returned to old patterns of processing emotions, and it was just simply terrible and without merit or progress. I let someone get into my head, and made me feel like I was less than what I was. I felt like I was hiding, and I have nothing to hide anymore. Secrets lead us to death, and hiding is just a form of a secret.
So, I come to some resolutions. These are short term things, easy, and fun.
1. Be a better friend. I have had a friend tell me that a pattern I am exhibiting in our friendship has been less than good. I had a feeling of what I was doing, but was sort of trapped in a pattern. So, now I need to be a better friend. I need to give and accept from my friends better.
2. I need to begin to properly educate myself about biking in 2009. I have discussions with people about biking, and I am referencing garbage from 1992. And that has no bearing in 2009. So, I want to be a commuting cyclist next spring, and that will demand I build a new bike. I need to do some research, and learn more about what makes sense in 2009. I am so out of touch.
3. Snowshoe. It is right there in front of me, every day. I am so excited about it, and it is such a good thing. I am so happy about it.
I think the interesting thing comes when I am learning new things, and interacting with people. My emotions are still very up and down, and do not connect to anything that makes sense to my head, but they still happen.
Short term goals.