I will get around to the whole end of the decade thing, and the resolution thing later on. But, I wanted to process this a little bit before I finally fellt asleep.
I have to be careful with my words, and with my talking, and the whole bit. I have not done anything to trigger this, but instead I experienced something. Recently I was with someone, and they said something in just sort of passing, and it ended up upsetting me.
The thing was, the person did not know they were upsetting me, did not mean to upset me, and I did not say anything to the person. But, I was upset.
Words can hurt people. They simply can. This person said something in passing, and I have been processing it for a while. I am sure that I have said things in passing, and these things have hurt others. No matter what I intended or did not intend, these things hurt others. And I have to accept that responsibility.
Our strength comes from knowing what we say. Our blessing comes from knowing that our friends love us. Our friendship comes from allowing for the mistaken turn of phrase from time to time.
While I do not like the sense of what was said to me, about me, I have nothing that I can do about it. All I can do is not do the same thing to others. I can own my words.